Gone

Have been rather lazy to blog these days.
Gone were the days I had time to do anything I want.
Gone were the days I could rest and enjoy TV shows.
But then again, I'm not complaining.
Going to Japan in less than 2 month's time.
Man, this is surreal.
I seriously have never dreamt that this day would come.
As they say, every cloud has a silver lining.
I hope such luck will continue to follow me and bless me in the years to come.
I'm greedy and I know it.
Well... who isn't? :)

SPAMS

I hate spams!!! It seems spams like to flood blogs that are neglected. I know I haven't been posting much nowadays. But school and work are really eating my time up. Can't wait for this semester to end!

Emotions

Always knew Mariah Carey was a talented singer, but never knew she was THIS good until I saw this video. Kudos to the 5-octave diva!

New Year 2013

It's New Year! I hope everyone had a great year in 2012.
2012 has been a year filled with distractions and new experiences.
Experiences that I have never felt in my life.
On 21 December, the idea of Armagedon crossed my mind...
The idea of the world ending felt terrible.
Foolish of me to think this way but I often thought of my love ones when I was away in Japan.
On a brighter side, everything is safe and sound.
I'm glad I can look forward to a future which I totally have no idea of.
I could barely remember my New Year resolutions for 2012, could you remember yours?
Guess it has come to a point that I couldn't be bothered with them now.
Remember nothing... not a single one.
And so what I hope for this year is that everything goes my way and that no one will rain on my parade.
Hope that's not a very tough request to welcome 2013.
And may this year be filled with surprises and joy.

Happy New Year my friends and also to strangers that follow my blog! :)

こころ

To love and to be loved; gives new meaning to life

Surprise

easily the most heart warming surprise after a seemingly long, tiring and shitty day.
thank you. it was worth it! =]

<3

Was falling asleep on the bed and decided to keep myself awake with the chocolates you've bought. :)

Acquiescence

Acquiescence to life.
Ambivalence; is but a casual sequence in life.
Nonchalance; sucks the soul out of one's life
And the end, takes you to neverland.

I just want to laugh at myself. But I can't. 我真的累了。

山縣 有朋

This guy is making me insane! You sure have a long lifespan didn't you?
Painstakingly churning books to understand your political life. Arghhhh~~~
I want this to end really soon! I still have another "Buddha" to attend to...

心寒

留下卑微的尊嚴，讓心就此放縱。
但犯贱也必需适可而止。告一段落就要懂得後退。
理智和心的掙扎總是讓人難以啟齒。
難道就能輕易讓＂笨＂就此停止下去嗎？
人生的每一個階段都會陷於交叉口的現狀~
那... 這次的答案又是甚麼？

韋禮安-慢慢等

Haven't heard this song for the longest time. Still loving it!

你终究占据了我的心房
我终于知道什么叫做疯狂
因为你 我不再怕黑暗
想着你让我更加勇敢
你说你害怕曾经受过的伤
过去发生的情节让你迷惘
害怕重演在你身上
却步 让你失去了方向
或许我没资格说什么（有谁不会害怕呢）
但我知道我会愿意等（你相信我的时候）
我会慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等上线 的铃声
慢慢等 等到我都睡着了
耐心等只为了心动 那一刻
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等红灯 变绿灯
慢慢等 当你突然觉得冷
我会握着温暖在 在这里等着
你说你害怕曾经受过的伤
过去发生的情节让你迷惘
害怕重演 在你身上
却步 让你失去了方向
或许我没资格说什么（有谁不会害怕呢）
但我知道我会愿意等（你相信我的时候）
我会慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等上线 的铃声
慢慢等 等到我都睡着了
耐心等只为了心动 那一刻
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等红灯 变绿灯
慢慢等 当你突然觉得冷
我会握着温暖在 在这里
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等上线 的铃声
慢慢等 等到我都睡着了
耐心等只为了心动 那一刻
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等
慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等红灯 变绿灯
慢慢等 当你突然觉得冷
我会握着温暖在 在这里等着

Gravity by Sara Bareilles

The lyrics bite and the music kills.
Addiction is a painful process.
When you think it's over, it comes back to haunt you whenever your mind is left idle. Sometimes I wished there's an actual cure to our own addictions. So... who/what is your remedy?

GRAVITY

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.

Ensnared To An Older Self

Fell, bruised and scarred. I'm sure all of us have experienced such "pain", whether is it the anguish of losing someone we love so dearly, the shame and fear of rejection or the feeling of defeat when expectations are not fulfilled.

Being ensnared in such sufferance is sadly part and parcel of life. 'Once bitten, twice shy', so the idiom says. Yes, I agree that we get the "twice shy" part, but what about the part where we pull ourselves up and become stronger everytime we get "bitten"? Do we just fall and never stand up again? The negative connotation attached to this idiom seems biased in my opinion. If I could ever edit this idiom, I would add "thrice stronger" to make it complete.

When the same things that hurt us before hurt us again, we take it with a stronger heart withstanding that intensity that once felt so pain and deep. Our minds become clearer and more rational with every decision we make. We set up this defensive mechanism in playing our cards right, hoping that the odds are ever in our favour. We reflect and view past incidents in a different light and laugh at our foolish moments. That's what maturing as an adult is all about, ain't it?

Simply Powerful

Rather not have it that way.

Pudding

Pudding Party. Only in Taiwan.

Dance

Watched this years back. I was touched by the performance even though I couldn't relate myself to the sufferings of cancer patients.  Sometimes when you can't convey a message through words, you draw. When drawing fails, you use music to express. Failing to do so. Just dance. I think it really helps. (provided you can)

對的人x錯的人

不是很喜歡這種感覺。是對的人或錯的人我也不知道。是尋我開心嗎？我也不知道。只知道好像在玩心裡頭的捉迷藏。耍心理戰術，試著去猜測對方的想法。我不喜歡這種感覺，也很儘力的不去想。希望那只是我的幻想。近來都過的很好。我不想再歷史重演。雖然心裡是存有那一丁點的渴望，但還真的不想再一次被誤導，被傷害。我的心其實沒有那麼堅強。錯的人，一個就已經足夠了。

P.S.那你是對的人嗎？

Student Exchange Programme

I'm targeting to go Japan for my Student Exchange Programme (SEP). From past records, universities in Japan has been the toughest for students like me to get in. I just hope things will go smoothly. I need miracles to happen.

Things that are working against me for this application.

1) My results aren't that fantastic.
2) Totally have no idea how mapping of modules work.
3) Money is still an issue but I'm working towards the "ideal" amount.
4) My parents aren't kept in the loop, shall tell them when everything is done.

It's quite an irritating thing that I've always envied kids who are raised in an environment way better than me. In conversations, my mind automatically does this "mental comparison" upon hearing living conditions of others. I can't help but turn a "green-eyed monster" knowing their lives are so well taken care of. Guess that's just me. Perhaps comparison makes the better out of me.

I work for my own money. I dislike the fact that kids nowadays just ask for money without knowing the true value of it. It's rather distasteful. Perhaps I'm just a sour grape. Knowing other kids get the privilege of "free" money and I'm just not entitled to any of them.

Jealousy kills but I think comparison kills the most. I'm crapping too much. Now the title doesn't even match the contents of this blog post. whatever.

Something In Your Eyes

I was listening to the radio and I chanced upon this. Immediately fell in love with it. Oldies are the nicest. :)