Friday

I didn't like that feeling...
It wasn't a very good day...
I was on a frenzy shunning away from people I knew on the streets...
It was literally CRAZY...
Acquaintances after acquaintances... Friends after friends...

It was nice meeting khaki again... We had a wonderful conversation...
Everybody changes from time to time... And yes they do...
We laughed and talked about the times spent during work in TCC...
I was only 17 back then...
Whatever that was said in Trattoria stays in Trattoria... ;)

I was on the way home and the meeting 'frenzy' didn't stop...
I met Sophia next...
We used to work together in TCC too...
We talked and updated each others' lives...
Sophia told me I've changed...
She told me I spoke differently...
She said "the Guobin in the past never use words like 'kan'..."
I left and she dropped me a message which shocked me...

"Guobin, I may not know what's going on in your life. You seem bothered or upset by some things. However, you must stay positive and jiayou! Take care and rest well!"

There's always highs and lows in people's lives and I guess now's not a very good period for me... It's like a grey area for me... It's neither here nor there... Everything seems so ambigious... I kinda hate that feeling...

I sometimes wished I didn't have to think so much but then again, I guess I can't seem to stop myself from doing so...

How can one be so heartless at avoiding situations he/she doesn't want to face?
Self-denial? Lack of courage? Or just simply uninterested?
I wish to understand...

P.S. To You, To Me... 干嘛老是用脸往冷屁股里帖。