Lost

I'm feeling abit lost right now... It feels like the monster inside me is unleashed everytime projects hit, I become very aggressive... When I say I'm aggressive, I mean it... It's like I don't care about people's feelings anymore... There's just too many datelines, too many meetings, too many plans to adhere to. I don't even know why I'm planning all the schedules for the project meetings... It's like my groupmates expect everything from me... I feel so tense in school everytime... I'm also feeling tense when I head to work... New procedures, new not-very-user-friendly systems, peak period = alot of customers = non-stop talking+explaining = puting on a fake smile when you don't feel like smiling at all. When I loosen myself rotting and lying on bed, I feel lost... Why am I trying so hard? Ya... Like why?