Walking home with Damien has always been something I enjoy ever since I started becoming good friends with him... Now to actually remember how we got to interact with each other on the first time makes me want to laugh... haha... It all started when I was still new in the outlet... One day, when I was working closing... Clearing the garbage bag was a usual thing I often did... I was very enthusiastic at that time and volunteered to help the kitchen staff to clear the garbage bag too... Damien was working closing at that time... though the garbage bag was very big... I still argued with him to give me the damn bag... After much persuation, he finally gave up and allowed me throw the bag... When I came back, he felt uneasy and bad for letting me to throw the BIG garbage bag but I told him I requested it in the first place... and so it goes on...Soon, we began to talk to each other ever since that fateful day...
Today is an eventful day for me, getting to know Amin's leaving wasn't a very good start for my day... The heart-to-heart talks with Damien just aggravated my feelings... I was feeling rock bottom after that... Damien came to S'pore for a purpose... I shan't disclose anything personal to him... but as I talk to him about his past... trying to console him... the worse I felt... Damien try to keep it cool when we touched on sensitive topics... He always laughed out and tried to make jokes when atmosphere turns tense... But I certainly brought out the anger that always seclude inside him... He was already thrusting his fist onto a pillar as we strolled around Suntec... I could see his eyes welling with tears though it didn't came out... that moment was really heart-wrenching for me... I told him how I felt... I said the more he laugh and smile, the worse I felt... seeing my good friend in turmoil and I couldn't do anything made me feel so helpless... Damien once told me this in chinese, '' A person that always puts on a smile too suffers from several setbacks in life... '' The 5 hour talk with Damien was certainly an enriching one... Although Sophia was just beside us with her friend for the first half... We felt like we were in each others world... though we still talk frequently...
As I parted with Damien after that, I took the MRT back home... during the trip, I send a text and told him never to give up... after that... I tried reading my comic but I gave up after one page... I couldn't focus... I tried to sleep but was useless... too much stuffs was in my mind!!! the trip has never felt this long before... the 45 minutes trip seem like a day... I stared into space during the trip... it seemed so dull... Now to recall... I couldn't even remember how I walked home from Admiralty... seriously... NOTHING!!!!
But anyway, Damien replied my text and say he will live his life to the fullest... that really put a load off my mind... At 1am, he sent this... I supposed he sent to alot of people too but I find it meaningful...
Its written in chinese... I shall do the translation:-
Let the wind blow away your sadness
Let the sunshine shower you with warmth
Let the rain wash away all your troubles
Let the moonlight reward you with contentment
Let love bring you blessings
Let friendship give you bliss
Let my message transmit you with the most cheerful smile
Having said this... I'm glad that everything didn't turn out as bad as it seems... just hope he has the courage to do what he wants to do.....
Guess I MAYBE seeing Damien for the last few months... hope he can stay in S'pore longer... (reminder to Emily- please don't speak a word to anyone about the probability of Damien not staying in S'pore anymore... Thanks... And also the existence of my blog... I want to keep this as personal as possible...)
Hmm.... I guess I should write off now... its already 3 in the morning... haiz... Band practices for tomorrow again... Boring~~~
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