Ouch

Just came back from my run... Exhausted... dizzy and all... THEN I recieve a message...

-Fujita-

"Hey! Long time no contact! How are you? When you'll be in national service!?"

Upon seeing this message, I immediately felt like I'm rammed by a plane or something... Got reminded on something that I've been escaping from... Still feeling abit uneasy about this... But it's all about adapting... I should welcome and embrace this "new" life, shouldn't I?

Felt abit guilty at the same time... Just goes to show how detached I am from all this... I'm not sure why... But I seem to be pushing myself away from people who cares about me...

Sometimes I feel I don't deserve such good treatment at all... After telling him when I'm getting in... He said, "OMG :-( Let's have you a piss off party in end of May B-)"

How nice of him...