A Desperate Liar

My brother's 'book of lies' seems to have reached its end... It has come to a point whereby even my parents find it hard to believe him... Haha... Well... I've never believed him in the first place... I tried... But it failed...

At times, my intuition tells me that my parents know... But they seem to 'force' themselves into believing whatever that is not true... I really don't know what to say... Haha...

Things To Be Happy About

1)NS body checkup done!
2)Saw Gimwei at the body checkup just when I wanna meet up with him... Haven't seen him for a year! So surprised to see each other...
3)Desmond is helping me to source for nice Euphonium solos...
4)Had a talk with Mr Ng today... He's helping me to source for the solo I wanna play :)
5)No more individual assignments!
6)Little nice gestures that make me smile
7)Get to have some time to 'nua' on Wednesday and Thursday


Things have been going smoothly these few weeks... I'm contented :)

Devastated

Desmond dropped me an sms... He can't get the scores for my Euphonium solo... :( What am I suppose to do?!!!! It's either the piece is too nice but I don't have the stamina to play or it is too easy that I find it boring...

I need to find nice Euphonium solo pieces... Time is running out... Hope Desmond provides me with solutions...

:)

Can't stop hearing his songs... It's becoming an obsession/addiction... So nice... so nice...

中孝介 - 路の途中

優しい風が　ささやく唄に
目を閉じ　想い描くのは　
あなたの笑顔
寄り添って飛ぶ　あの鳥のように
同じ速さで　歩いて行きたい人がいる
どこまでも
遠く続く　路の途中
いつまでも　貴方と微笑を交わし
雨が心　濡らす時は
互いに寄り添い　晴れる日を待とう
行き急ぐこと　疲れた夜は
心に積もったため息　あずけてほしい
まだ見ぬ明日を恐れるよりも
生き抜いた今日という日
そっと抱きしめよう
どこまでも
遠く続く　路の途中
いつまでも　貴方と微笑を交わし
暗い道に　迷うときは
肩寄せて　一緒に明かりを灯そう
未来さえ　失くすだろう
あなたを　失えば
その笑顔　守りたい
どんな時も　ずっと…
遠く続く　路の途中
いつまでも　貴方と微笑を交わし
涙雨に　濡れる時は
貴方と二人で　太陽を迎えよう
生きてゆく　二人だけのこの路を

Touched

Was working on my report and my dad suddenly passed me a letter... Apparently, my dad went down to open the letterbox... It's a Christmas Card from Brenda! I'm seriously so touched by her kind gesture :) Brenda... Miss you so much!

Bangkok 20-23 Dec Trip

Time for some updates for Thailand... I'm glad I made it back in one piece...

Day 1

Alighted at BangKok and got onto the mini van... There were practically no queues in the airport... Process was seamless... I would have to thank the PAD supporters for dealing so much damage to the economy... Haha...



Journey was bumpy... travelling the expressway kinda reminds me of Taiwan... Stepped into Princess Pathumwan hotel... It was magnificent... My impression of the hotel leveraged when the counter guy/receptionist served us... He was like the embodiment of glam & famous... I don't know how to describe but he really looked like a star... I think that's the most good-looking male I've ever seen so far... Can't believe it's a Thai... I was sneaky enough to take a picture of him...







We proceeded for lunch at "Chine Club" to have some traditional Thai cuisine... The green curry and lemon grass tea was really yummy...





Headed for some "light" shopping at MBK shopping centre and met up with Timo cousin's family... Went for seafood at Chinatown and later a BIG BOWLFUL OF BIRDNEST!!!




Julian is so cute... was playing the brow thingy with him...



Day 2

Second day was a killer... I shopped like there's no tomorrow in Chatuchak... It's really a shopping heaven... For someone like me that's not into shopping... I must say that it is really the nicest place you can find... Really suitable for people like me that prefers comfy & price over brand... bought alot of nice cooling shirts... Over the 20 years, the number of times I've actually bought shirts for myself can be count in just one hand... Kinda pathetic eh...


This baby Chow Chow was taken at the animal section of Chatuchak... All the dogs looked SO adorable...

Results of 7 hours of crazy non-stop shopping... Tada! I arranged the clothes for some photo-taking while Timo was bathing... Sense of achievement eh...







Headed to Siam for dinner at Greyhound Cafe and shopped for Thai delicacies... Timo recommended me Gourmet Thai... Premium quality Thai delicacy... I'm sure you can see how much Fattim devoured the pack of assorted dried fruits I've brought for X'mas...







Fooling around with the giant Lollipop



As we pushed this cart around... People were looking at us... Timo felt so ashamed of it but I thought it's great... Should be proud of the stuff you get... Haha...



This is what I got for the people... S$135 worth of snacks... And that concludes Day 2...

Day 3

Headed for a full-body Thai massage at Healthland... The massage was awesome... I've always percieved massages as sleazy and dirty but I was wrong... Was really afraid even before the session started... I'm really sensitive to people touching me... The goosebumps and tickles I get whenever someone massages my back...

The entire massage lasted approximately 2 hours... The soft new age music playing, the dimly lit ambience and most importantly, I didnt feel the slightest ticklish-ness... Thought I was in nirvana for a moment...

The masseurs were professional... Was amazed by the knowledge and power of massage... How each areas of the entire body were dealt... It's really interesting... The massages were so "intricately" designed that even hands had differnet areas needed to be "pressed"... I was contemplating whether to tip the lady 100 or 200 baht... The second-half of the session made me tip 200 baht... She stepped, knee, pulled on the back area of my body... I felt so relieved from my backache with her cracking my bones... Shiok!





Headed to another restaurant... I really liked the design... Was really classy...



And this is where my sickness started to kick in... Felt like crap after that... Couldn't proceed to the floating flower market as I was dying... Took Panadol and continued to "tong" for another 6 hours with all the travelling at Pratunam until Timo said it was time to stop... He commented that my face looked pale... 2nd time in a month... I couldn't even take another step... Took the TutTut back hotel and I can't recall anything... Felt so sick... Lucky Timo took care of me or I couldn't have recovered this fast...

Day 4

I felt better... Couln't eat much... Swallowed medicine and did some last minute shopping... Felt happy to get back Singapore... After travelling a few Asian countries... Singapore is really still the best... and of course... I miss my friends! :)

Cyclo Path

The unofficial cycling event was fun even we didn't managed to finish the track... Gotta put my hands down to Xiao Ti & Bc for doing the shirt and goodie bag... That's so meticulous of them... :)

Haha

I think I'm really slow... I'm sure everyone had came across the word "untitled"... This word will definitely appear if you have pictures in your computer... I've always thought that this word was a term used for identifying pictures... THEN something happen today, I came across this word again and to my surprise... I felt enlightened! I just realise "untitled" was actually "UN" titled!!! GOSH! This is atrocious... I laughed at my stupidity upon realising it... So dumb! So dumb! So dumb!

And of course not forget about the fire extinguisher incident, the car incident, the restaurant incident, the sentosa tramp incident... I'm so dumb.. Can't stand it!

I WANT!!!!

When I saw this video, my focus was directed at the cardigan he wore! It's the exact same design, cutting and colour I've always thought a cardigan should look like... Tried to find the cardigan at town but to no avail... Seems like mission impossible... :(



And Kousuke Atari sings in a Shima Uta style which is a distinctive vocal style originated in the Okinawa islands of Southern Japan... Interesting...

Stress

I'm seriously very stress with projects now... Every year just gets tougher and tougher...

中孝介

Had Kousuke Atari's songs for quite sometime... Never really had the chance to hear it coz I've too many Japanese Songs in my iPod... Thanks to Cape No.7, I've learnt to appreciate his songs more... and I really like his voice! Some of the songs are really wonderful and the lyrics are so meaningful! Love it!

Stupid MSN account

WQ:
hey wanna ask you if you wan the JLPT pass year exam papers
if not i throwing them away

そばにいて… says:
i wan!
is that weiqiang?

WQ says:
ya

そばにいて… says:
haha... since when u add me? i didnt know tat sia?

WQ says:
i can bring when i going for mus art
SO LONG

そばにいて… says:
okie! haha
REALLY!

WQ says:
i forever here loh

そばにいて… says:
my msn siao de lo

WQ says:
it just that you didn't know its me

そばにいて… says:
cannot detect ppl that add me de lo

WQ says:
lol

そばにいて… says:
which means u've added me like AGES aGO?

WQ says:
ages ages ages
the last last last time i saw you

そばにいて… says:
OMG!!! nv tok to me
OMG!!!!

WQ says:
that esplanade concert
since that

そばにいて… says:
tat lke 2006?

WQ says:
hmm think so

そばにいて… says:
thnks for NOT toking to me ah!

WQ says:
lol, now i got what
and i giving you goodies
haa
pass year exam papers and answers

そばにいて… says:
haha! yaya! thnks lots man!

And I just realised not long ago Weiqiang was from NUS band... I'm such a laggard...

Tongue Twisters

Number 1

Ayashimiyo Ayashimu deki o ayashi umazu
(It's suspicious to suspect suspicious situations)
Ayashi kara no ayashimu ayashi
(Very suspicious, therefore suspicious situations need to be suspected)

Number 2
Kono otoko no honto no kokoro o tokoro no omou no yo sono otoko kurosou no omou no yo
(I reckon the way to open this man's thoughts from the heart. That man, I want to kill him)

Industrial Placement Project

Results out and the 10 weeks of all the hardwork not gone to waste :) Now retreat to my mugging world...

Plain Exhaustion

The past few days of exhaustion and lack of sleep have finally taken its effects... Woke up feeling abit doped... was 40 minutes late for IMC tutorial... After lesson ended, TT commented that my lips were "white" and that my complexion looked pale...

I was abit shocked coz my face/complexion had NEVER showed signs of sickness even if I'm ill... Continued another 2 hour tutorial on SMM... Felt forever... it was only 1pm by then... I still have 2 more lectures and work at night to go... but I tell myself I really can't take it anymore... I really need to rest...

Conclusion... I went home... felt like dying on the way... Guess I need more sleep so I can study for the test later... Zzzzz....

YEEEEEE

After the dental check-up with tim, I can smile confidently again... The stains were bothering me so much... At a point, I thought it couldn't be removed... Yeeeee... As I smile... It's sparkling white!

Stains removed = $60 off my bank account... *weep*

Kokoro Hurted Again

そばにいて… says:
OMG!
so who's first
definitely i not in the hall of fame for pigs...
oh hohohohohoho!

tim says:
hmm sadly not u tho 
haha
some pple u dunn
*dunnohaha
XXX's a pig too (viewer's discretion)
lol

そばにいて… says:
wat SADLY!!!! omg...
u wished i were a pig rite?

tim says:
ermmm but u are always a butasan in my kokoro

そばにいて… says:
OUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

tim says:
u shud go awwwwwwwwwwwwww

Butterfly Lovers

The entire piece suddenly made sense when the harpist explained her interpretation of the story of Butterfly Lovers... Every phase of the music tells a story... and it's really interesting coz you can really illustrate the scenes in your head while playing the music...

When the erhu player came in at figure 3... my hair stood up all of a sudden... The erhu represented Ying Tai's pain... it was REALLY REALLY sad... I was looking for the expression of other players and of course... trying to catch sight of any "goosebumps" in their arms... Haha...

Seriously, I've never played a band piece that made me so emotional before... Felt the pain of Ying Tai and Shan Bo... Really feel for the piece...

Am really exhausted from Saturday's 10 hours of practice and Sunday's 7 hours of practice... Cut my gum + stupid ulcers... Arghh... Luckily my lips didn't bleed from long hours of practice...

*Side note to Tim* I will never forget that Saturday night... Arghhh... Thanks eh...

!@$%

I'm still bloody pissed with that bitch... but Tim, seeing you really make my day! If you know what I mean... LOL!

:)

Fucking pretentious conniving twin-headed snake bitch... :)

Arghhhh

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犯贱的究级体

After all this while, isn't that the outcome you've hoped for?
Just watched episode 9 of Skip Beat and I just realised something... the obstacle in between is myself...

I can now officially classify myself as 犯贱的究级体... Haha...

Irony

The thing about irony is that you aren't given the choice to choose things that you don't want to do...

Skip Beat!

Thanks to my secondary schoolmates, I got alot of chances interacting with different ranges of comics... Just name it, I may have read it before... I remembered reading Skip Beat! at the age of 16... I was so crazy about that comic at that time... One of the best shoujou-comics I've read... It depicts how a teenage girl had wasted 16 years of her life falling in love and at the same time, serving+taking care a childhood friend (aspiring celebrity) who had been using her all along... Back then, her world only revolved around that jerk...

One day, things started to change when the teenage girl found out that she was being used all this time... To many, some may just cry and question the heartless party... But in her case, it was totally different... She lost the feeling of being "love"; this had translate whatever that was left in her into "hate"... She vowed to take revenge on the jerk who had destroyed her life... To accomplish this, she had to beat that jerk in the scene of media...

The classic scene when the grudge inside her unleashed! WOOT! This was the scene where she found out she was being cheated...


Really love the female lead... Her feelings and thoughts are so well conveyed into words... Recently, I've got news from my friend that they made the comic into an anime... And of course, I've started watching it...

Well, the lead character often reminds me of myself... The part where she questions her own consciousness is so ME... The "grudges" or devil in her will constantly provide her with evil advices, and of course, there's also the angel warding off the bad advices given... Haha... So funny... Really love it...

I need to know what happened next... I stopped at book 9... Now it's book 19 and going!!! Maybe I should just buy and keep a collection of it...

...

"Hate" may turn out to be the word... I should retreat back to my isle of the damned...

Dream

First time waking up panting heavily... Heart was pounding so fast... It felt like an anxiety attack...

Direct Point Of Contact

I often exude a faint smile whenever I recall the long conversations I had with my friends on the phone... Nostalgic...

During my secondary school days, the usage of handphones proliferated... It was the "in" thing at that time... I was considered as one of the laggards due to my late adoption of the handphone... As time goes by, I became over reliant on the handphone or rather the "SMS" function... It sort of diminished the purpose of me calling people or vice versa... I couldn't really recall what it feels like to chat or conversate on the phone anymore... hearing the voice, the intonation, what he/she meant and was trying to direct at that point of time didn't matter much... I always felt that SMSes were sufficient enough... sufficient enough to convey what I meant at that time...

This subliminal effect had definitely caused habits and perceptions to change... It's quite scary coz it attacks your subconscious without you knowing it... Thanks to SMSes, I've become incompetent in conveying what I feel whenever I'm on the phone... It just feels awkward/alien/foreign to me... It feels like removing the barriers that are always "protecting" you... Once you setp out of your comfort zone... The word to describe would be... naked I would say...

Okay... I'm weird... but I'm kind of glad I got out of it... The feeling that was long lost had somewhat rekindled again... I guess...

Chamber Maid

Became Xiao Ti's chamber maid for 2 hours just now... Thanks eh! Haha...

Political Unrest in Thailand

Working on a project with regards to my International Business module... Yup... It's on Thailand... Have been doing countless researches and read-ups on newspapers and Internet articles on Thailand's political turmoil... One word to describe... "cui"...

Latest news... Thailand just shut down the airport... all thanks to the protesters... which THEN brings back to one question! How am I suppose to go Thailand with Timo? Haiz...

Things I HAVE to do...

Dental check-up with FATtim...
Skin check-up with Timo...

These check-ups are SO going to blow a big hole in my pocket... *cries*

Desire

it's an emotion designed that leads us astray
persuading those who crave love to make foolish choices
causing those who yearn for family to act out in anger
allowing those who are lonely to behave in reckless ways
and when the pursue of our heart's desire becomes an obsession
the best we can hope for is a caring friend willing to come along
and stop us

Quoted from desperate housewives... This show is always so meaningful...

Why Am I So Fat?

Was squeezing my fats and at the same time working on my report... (know its very unglam...) But I can't help it! And so I complained to Nick about it...

そばにいて… says:
im so fat.. neek
"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
i noe
WAHAHA
そばにいて… says:
really ah?!
"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
yeah like a big fat buta san
そばにいて… says:
i wan to exercise

Yeah... I really need to exercise... I'm SHO FAT!!!!! FAT FAT FAT!

|||

Went for break with Joel during Mus'art practice and he commented that I looked like an Ah Beng after my haircut... :( What a mismatch in identity... This "Ah Beng" term has never been in the blood of THE Dustbin...

The Good, The Bad, The Weird

Caught this movie yesterday and it's awesome! Lots of gun fights and funny scenes that would make you laugh your ass off... This movie is EVEN better coz my idol is inside! And obviously, he's the Good...



Three words, damn shuai can!

Lost

I'm feeling abit lost right now... It feels like the monster inside me is unleashed everytime projects hit, I become very aggressive... When I say I'm aggressive, I mean it... It's like I don't care about people's feelings anymore... There's just too many datelines, too many meetings, too many plans to adhere to. I don't even know why I'm planning all the schedules for the project meetings... It's like my groupmates expect everything from me... I feel so tense in school everytime... I'm also feeling tense when I head to work... New procedures, new not-very-user-friendly systems, peak period = alot of customers = non-stop talking+explaining = puting on a fake smile when you don't feel like smiling at all. When I loosen myself rotting and lying on bed, I feel lost... Why am I trying so hard? Ya... Like why?

Hmmmmm....

Meiling once mentioned that the simplest and purest love = loving someone without hurting that person... I think it's really true...

痛い

I walked back home with my heavy bag carrying the stack of heavy notes and files with my left hand... My right hand held an umbrella... It was raining and I was daydreaming again...

Suddenly caught sight of an old man clearing the rubbish while it rained... weird... but before I could realise anything... I was lying on the pavement... Ya... I slipped and fell again... Guess the pavement was too slippery... and my notes are abit wet now... Haiz...

I don't know why I'm so careless... Still remember few weeks ago I got out of Xiao Ti's car after supper and I lost my balance and fell right on the road... So embarrassing... Tim was there too...

Arghhh... My butt hurts...

I don't know how to reply
I don't know how to answer
I don't know how to accept
I don't know how to reject
I don't know how to sleep
I don't know how to wake up
I don't know how to see
I don't know how to feel

I don't know

I feel drained...

Virgin Prawning Session

A string of events in a day... Project Meetings, Schooling, Prawning with my clique, Dinner and Supper... I got my first prawn in 2 minutes... *Beginner's luck* The most disturbing part was watching how Hannah put the catfish bait into the hook... *it's ALIVE!* And the second part I hate most was watching how the prawnies got hooked up... The prawnies will use their (Hands/Claws/Legs *whatever you call them*) to get the hook off their mouth... And you know what Hannah and Timo did? They simply pulled their hands off and throw it off the ground heartlessly... And they seemed to be enjoying it... UTTER DI-GUST!


The clique (Missing Fiona & TT)


Hannah was good! She caught the most...


DIE prawnies! Wahahaha!


This prawn is huge!


Timo with the prawn...


The flower Hannah drew earlier in the morning smudged...


Timo's new car is SHO nice! I can just lie down and look at the stars...

P.S. I know it's over but sorry for making your day even worse! SORRY

What did it meant?

This happened few days ago... Class was so draining and it didn't help that we had the most boring module + tutor who utilizes a full 2-hour lesson just for 7 idiotic questions... And so, I started wandering off chatting with Hannah... Felt random and asked her what did the sentence "heart you deep deep" meant... She was in awe that I didn't knew what it meant... Okay... Sorry for being retarded yet again... At least I got the answer... Haha...

After that, Hannah started drawing this... So random of her... The whale looks cute though... Haha...



And this is Hannah!

Phew

Just got back from the awards ceremony... Tiring... I seriously don't know how I got through the past 2 semesters with band, 2 part time jobs PLUS school... I guess hard work really does pay off... But then, I seriously wish I could kneel down at one corner and beg people to throw me their wasted hours... I seriously need more time to do something I enjoy... Wasting my precious time of resting JUST to get PAPERS! (NOT)


Hannah took this for me during classes... Hehe...


Love the hourglass cufflinks!


$$$ (quite little though, but better than nothing... hehe)


Got this earlier on this year...


Today

And conclusion? BIN has a really tired soul...

Really True

Credits from Miao... She never fails to express her inner thoughts in such great details...

The thing about having something hidden in your past is that you spend every minute of the future building a wall that makes the monster harder to see. you convince yourself that the wall is sturdy and thick, and one day, when you wake up and that horrible thing does not immediately jump into your mind, you give yourself the freedom to pretend that it is well and truly gone. which only makes it that much more painful when something like this happens, and you learn that the concrete wall is really as transparent as glass, and twice as fragile.

This is so true...

Skipped

Skipped band to watch Westwind Concert coz Xiao Ti wanted to listen to Jurassic Park... The concert didn't turn out as good as it was supposed to... I had too much expectation of that band... Disappointing... They slaugtered tunes from Final Fantasy not once, but TWICE... It's one of my favourite soundtracks of all times... GOD... How can they do that???

Played around with my new camera... Not bad not bad... and Xiao Ti ended up taking most of the photos for the day... haha... Dinner at Causeway Point with Tim... Headed back home... and I'm exhausted... Getting old...


His new HP craze


My Tiramisu + Green Mint Ice Cream


His Durian + Vanilla (something along that line) ice cream


And I look hideous... Argghhh....

Olympus M1040

You guys must be wondering why I put this up... Okay... I went bonkers and bought this camera... Haha... Was searching for a Sony Ericsson camera phone to buy... but it was too pricey... and I didn't want to spend $600++ just to buy a handphone which I only get to use less than a year... and so BJ suggested I should buy a camera... and TATA! *POOF!* It's here in my possesion now...

Bin shall cut down his spendings from now onwards...

My New Love

Bought this yesterday... and the taste is simply FANTASTIC!!! Chilled both the drink and glass... Added ice... Poured in the alcohol... Alone at home... Sat down on the sofa and took the first gulp... REFRESHING... ended up drinking the 2nd glass... Felt calm while drinking this alone... The magic of choya... Combination of the taste of sour and the alcohol... Going to make this a monthly thing... Shall stock my fridge with choya monthly...

That was really...

Happen to chance upon 我是俏宝宝 a.k.a Super Tots on Channel 8. Was actually a show whereby parents showcase their kids whilst getting them to compete with other kids on cute games... Was really amazed at the kid's reactions towards the instructions given to by their parents... SOOOO bright!

And so... I asked my mum, "Ma, did I speak so fluently like them at the age of 2-3+?" And this is what she replied... "You? Oh... You can't even speak right... You didn't really know how to speak at that time... You were slow... and you stutter alot..."

Now I realise why I only had memories at the age of 4... Freaking retarded...

What A Night

"Wasn't easy to be so persistant... and turned down, recieve OKAYs, and phone calls tt were cancelled!"

Number of calls cancelled? Lost count... Opps... But still... Thanks for everything... One of the messages really woke me up... FOR GOOD! You are really special... At least that's what I felt...

Not so well after all...

31st October 2008

And yesterday marked the last day of my 10 week attachment at Prudential... Time seemed to fly really fast... Too fast for me to even comprehend or even catch a breath...

Earlier on, my liaison officer came to the office and dropped 2 exploding news to me, but I'm not even sure to be happy or not... Didn't really had any mood to listen to her anyway... then a minute ago, I was thinking how to say goodbye to Marcus as the conversation didn't seem to come to a nice spot where I could put an end to it... Before I could even remember, I found myself literally "running" towards the mrt station to meet ym before heading for the concert... and God were we squashed like packed sardine sandwiches in the train towards Raffles Place...

Bought a tea/coffee plunger as a farewell gift... Something I knew he will defintely use it for good...


This was taken by Boon Peng... The picture came out pretty good... courtesy from my Panasonic VS6... Till now, I still don't understand why my colleagues say we had the "Father-Son Look", the "Brother Look", able to "Speak Alike"... So on and so forth...


Angeline told me to take a photo with the client's policy that were piling up like mad, it was way too high that I had to transfer half of it into the cabinet... What you've just seen was only 10% of it...


I'm seriously glad that I was able to complete everything that was assigned to me... Really worked my ass off... If its not for the skipped lunches, the OTs... I may not be able to finish it within this 10 weeks...

I felt really sad leaving the place, but what Tim said was right... I should leave the place at my highest point... and I think I did... All the wonderful memories... the neverending teabreaks... All I could say was... I really enjoyed every single moment being there...

This 10 weeks have really changed my mindset in alot of ways... I seriously don't see my old self anymore... For good or for worst, we are constantly changing... I hope others still see me for who I am...

I have a really bad premonition going back to school... I know something is going to happen... Something bad... I know this last semester is not going to be so smooth sailing as it did in the past... Maybe alot of dramas would be unfolded to test the friendship between my polymates... Well... Let's see... I shall await...

Work

For some reason, everyone was feeling hysterical at work... We were making a topic out of kissing and I was dragged into the picture... Everyone laughed so loudly that even the BIG boss came out to join in the fun...

Then Lai Peng said this... "Guobin ah! The laughs would not be the same without you being around anymore."

I kept quiet...

Retarded Retard

Ending it as if it were a dream...
Stopped like it was never meant to begin...

Still Dealing With It

When separation begins, it continues... and never stops... I've always hated the feeling of dealing with separation... as time sheds by, "inevitability" becomes stronger... humans live to experience this excruciating process...

Sometimes I just wish I was stronger and tougher to deal with this... I've been there, done that so many times... but sometimes, I just can't seem to get pass my own emotions... I wish I could bury and abandon them... But it never fails to find its way back to haunt me...

Bin... rule your own emotions, don't let them rule you...

That's It!

After 4 hours of meeting at work, all I can say is I'm so not going to have anything to do with IT stuff anymore... Mentally exhausting... Haven't had anything since morning... Haiz...

Did I mention that the IT personnel/teacher I had meeting with looks like YM in his 40s? LOL!

Feelings are important

Another one I've found... Damn is this meaningful...

I always thought that
what I do each day
is so vital
what I say each day
is so necessary
what I learn each day
is so stimulating
but I have found out that
what I feel each day
is more important
than anything else
and my love for you
is the deepest feeling I have
Thank you for your love
It is the most important and
beautiful part of my life

SICK LAUGH-ABLE JOKES

I was cleaning up Marcus stuff and I found this a piece of paper filled with jokes... I'll show you guys what is it...

1) 3 guys were introduced to a girl: Hi, I'm Peter not a saint. I'm Paul not a Pope. I'm John not a Baptist. The girl replied: Hi! I'm Mary not a Virgin.

2) What was the cause of the break up between Prince Charles and Lady D? Lady D discovers that not all rulers have 12 inches.

3) OLD MAN: Can you give me an erection? FAITH HEALER: I can make the blind see, make the lame walk and I can even cure cancer, but I'm sorry I cannot raise the dead.

4) 2 employees were caught naked and having sex in the office by the guard. GUARD: Aha! Violating company rules! Man: What rule? GUARD: Not wearing uniforms.

5) What is the difference between Biology and Sociology? A: If the baby looks like the father, that is biology. If he looks like the neighbour, that's sociology.

6) Define Impotence? ... Nature's way of saying "NO HARD FEELINGS"

7) A husband was asked: Do you talk to your wife after sex? His answer: Depends, if I can find a phone.

8) At the movie house. GIRL: Honey, the man beside me is masturbating. BF: just ignore him dear. GIRL: I can't. He's using my hand!!!

Save the best for the last! Here it goes!

9) Why was the 2 piece bikini invented?

To separate the meat section from the dairy section.

Hope you guys have a good laugh! :) Hehehe...

IRRITAAAAAATING!!!! VER. 2

そばにいて… says:
sultry is quite a strong word to use actually

p*kaE says:
woots

p*kaE says:
realise non of e girls are like that lol

p*kaE says:
will probably end up looking ridiculous if attempting to look sultry

p*kaE says:
hahhaha!

p*kaE says:
only bin can pull it off

p*kaE says:
LOL

そばにいて… says:
WEI!

そばにいて… says:
thnks ah!

IRRITAAAAAATING!!!!

"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
here comes the retarded

tim says:
all rise

"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
*bow*

"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
take your seat

tim says:
(gosh really the retarded sia)

tim says:
(he doesnt speak)

"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
he's retarded rem?..

"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
takes awhile

tim says:
*clears throat. seated.

そばにいて… says:
WEI!

tim says:
your honour

"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
see

tim says:
(oh gosh damn retarded sia)

:)

The game was secondary... What matters most was the company... Love you guys! :)

Gastric

Gastric hurt so bad yesterday... This is really the first time I'm experiencing this... The pain got even worse in the evening... I was forced to stop what I was doing and dragged myself to hide in the toilet coz I didn't want to alarm Marcus... He will definitely make a big hoo-haa out of it...

Couldn't seem to stand up as it was hurting so badly... I cuddled myself to suppress the pain hoping it would go away... 15 minutes went past but nothing felt right... Forced myself to stand up and get back to work... Luckily, the pain subsided towards the end of the work... Man... it was excruciating...

Exclusively for you...

You said you couldn't draw to vent the emotions like I do... So I did it on your behalf... :) Cheer up ya! and smile!!! :) Hope this picture serves its purpose and does its magic!

If you look closely into the faces of those around you, you'll catch a certain glimpse of a green-eyed monster. And then you’ll see the envy they have for you... how do you deal with such jealousy? There are many ways… but the best… is to simply share what you have…

Please

This ought to be some obnoxious weird coincidence....

1)Normally, I shut off my handphone during my sleep; this was to conserve energy as the battery life drains off quickly... I didn't do so today...

2)I woke up as I was thristy, went to catch a cup of water, it was 4am in the morning... When I came back, the handphone started to ring... It was a message alert...

It suddenly felt so cold and chilly in the morning... more like the coldness was coming from the inside than it was from the outside... I'm not sure why... After exchanging a few messages, I couldn't seem to put myself to sleep... it took me some time... it did...

Please don't be like this... please...

Abyss

After drawing manga for so many years... The eyes of one formulate the entire body, the entire expression of a character... I chose to draw this character because of her eyes... The eyes speak a thousand words... and yes... it was clouded with sorrow and desperation... was kinda the feeling I wanted to capture when I was down... I thought she represented how I felt at that time...

Surprisingly, the more I drew, the feeling just went away... I think drawing is one of the ways I vent my emotions... The emotions that I drew was kinda sealed in the drawing once the picture was done... Now I know why I had no worries or problems back in the days when I was younger... I seemed to draw everyday... I shall continue this hobby that was once forgotten...

And now, rubbish bin is back in action! I mean full force ya! :) Thanks for all the concerns... you guys know who you are ;) Xiao Ti, you can safekeep the coloured coffin for now... who knows you may be the first to use it? :P

:(

I was THIS close to skipping my part time work today... Thinking back, I'm glad I didn't abandon my duties... I will occupy myself with work, and I shall work till the day I fall apart...

Sorry PK... let's meet up some other time okay? :)

時光暫停

I spaced out hearing this song... yes.. true as the title says... It felt like my time stopped at that short span of 5 mins... I feel...

Make My Day

Being caught up in memories is a privilege reserved for people... Being free of the weight of one's past is a privilege reserved for those with no memories... Okay! I know I always come out with crappy quotes...

4 years is really fast eh...


The conversations, the talks...


Some friendships need years to cultivate... Some takes only hours...


Now I know why BC's shirt is always so BIG! His shoulders are like laundry h*****s... :P


And yes, he does the most random thing in pictures... GOSH!


And someone is missing... XIAO TI! WHERE ARE YOU??? AND "INNOCENT" JAMA?