thoughts

as much as I refuse to admit.
我真的很在乎别人对我的想法。
even if it's one small comment.
that being said, am feeling abit feverish. hope a good sleep will get me back and bouncing.

note to self: you must not fall sick at this critical period of time. push on!

Realization

Pissed - Haven't used this word for a long time. After all the incidents that've happened in the past. I realised something about myself today. I no longer want to be the person I was anymore. The victim who always takes in all sorts of nonsense by himself and swallows it down on his own. The victim who gets put down easily by other people. The victim who easily gets emotional blackmailed by others. The victim who gets taken advantage of.

On Wednesday, I got accused for something I have not even done. In the past, I would probably close one eye and let things pass, but not yesterday. I lashed back at my friend. I realized I wasn't looking for an apology. But the fact that I can't let myself take in nonsense which I don't think I deserve in the first place. On Thursday, I got stood up by my friend. I'm not pissed at the fact that I got stood up. But the fact that I'm being treated like a fool, waiting for someone only to know that a free ride back home seems to be more important than keeping an appointment. Likewise, I didn't let this incident pass by without expressing how I felt.

This is so unlike me. I seemed to have created a protective mechanism subconsciously. Perhaps it's age catching up on me or perhaps I've suffered too much shit in the past resulting in me getting less and less tolerant over stuffs that get on my nerves. What a bad way to end my school week. I need to focus on work tomorrow, audit is nearing!

I Wear Black Glasses!

Sorry for neglecting this blog. Have been super busy with school work. A little song for everyone who loves to wear black glasses! :)  <3 Angela Aki!