Dream

First time waking up panting heavily... Heart was pounding so fast... It felt like an anxiety attack...

Direct Point Of Contact

I often exude a faint smile whenever I recall the long conversations I had with my friends on the phone... Nostalgic...

During my secondary school days, the usage of handphones proliferated... It was the "in" thing at that time... I was considered as one of the laggards due to my late adoption of the handphone... As time goes by, I became over reliant on the handphone or rather the "SMS" function... It sort of diminished the purpose of me calling people or vice versa... I couldn't really recall what it feels like to chat or conversate on the phone anymore... hearing the voice, the intonation, what he/she meant and was trying to direct at that point of time didn't matter much... I always felt that SMSes were sufficient enough... sufficient enough to convey what I meant at that time...

This subliminal effect had definitely caused habits and perceptions to change... It's quite scary coz it attacks your subconscious without you knowing it... Thanks to SMSes, I've become incompetent in conveying what I feel whenever I'm on the phone... It just feels awkward/alien/foreign to me... It feels like removing the barriers that are always "protecting" you... Once you setp out of your comfort zone... The word to describe would be... naked I would say...

Okay... I'm weird... but I'm kind of glad I got out of it... The feeling that was long lost had somewhat rekindled again... I guess...

Chamber Maid

Became Xiao Ti's chamber maid for 2 hours just now... Thanks eh! Haha...

Political Unrest in Thailand

Working on a project with regards to my International Business module... Yup... It's on Thailand... Have been doing countless researches and read-ups on newspapers and Internet articles on Thailand's political turmoil... One word to describe... "cui"...

Latest news... Thailand just shut down the airport... all thanks to the protesters... which THEN brings back to one question! How am I suppose to go Thailand with Timo? Haiz...

Things I HAVE to do...

Dental check-up with FATtim...
Skin check-up with Timo...

These check-ups are SO going to blow a big hole in my pocket... *cries*

Desire

it's an emotion designed that leads us astray
persuading those who crave love to make foolish choices
causing those who yearn for family to act out in anger
allowing those who are lonely to behave in reckless ways
and when the pursue of our heart's desire becomes an obsession
the best we can hope for is a caring friend willing to come along
and stop us

Quoted from desperate housewives... This show is always so meaningful...

Why Am I So Fat?

Was squeezing my fats and at the same time working on my report... (know its very unglam...) But I can't help it! And so I complained to Nick about it...

そばにいて… says:
im so fat.. neek
"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
i noe
WAHAHA
そばにいて… says:
really ah?!
"U"-Nick ©: Life would be much easier if I had the source code. says:
yeah like a big fat buta san
そばにいて… says:
i wan to exercise

Yeah... I really need to exercise... I'm SHO FAT!!!!! FAT FAT FAT!

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Went for break with Joel during Mus'art practice and he commented that I looked like an Ah Beng after my haircut... :( What a mismatch in identity... This "Ah Beng" term has never been in the blood of THE Dustbin...

The Good, The Bad, The Weird

Caught this movie yesterday and it's awesome! Lots of gun fights and funny scenes that would make you laugh your ass off... This movie is EVEN better coz my idol is inside! And obviously, he's the Good...



Three words, damn shuai can!

Lost

I'm feeling abit lost right now... It feels like the monster inside me is unleashed everytime projects hit, I become very aggressive... When I say I'm aggressive, I mean it... It's like I don't care about people's feelings anymore... There's just too many datelines, too many meetings, too many plans to adhere to. I don't even know why I'm planning all the schedules for the project meetings... It's like my groupmates expect everything from me... I feel so tense in school everytime... I'm also feeling tense when I head to work... New procedures, new not-very-user-friendly systems, peak period = alot of customers = non-stop talking+explaining = puting on a fake smile when you don't feel like smiling at all. When I loosen myself rotting and lying on bed, I feel lost... Why am I trying so hard? Ya... Like why?

Hmmmmm....

Meiling once mentioned that the simplest and purest love = loving someone without hurting that person... I think it's really true...

痛い

I walked back home with my heavy bag carrying the stack of heavy notes and files with my left hand... My right hand held an umbrella... It was raining and I was daydreaming again...

Suddenly caught sight of an old man clearing the rubbish while it rained... weird... but before I could realise anything... I was lying on the pavement... Ya... I slipped and fell again... Guess the pavement was too slippery... and my notes are abit wet now... Haiz...

I don't know why I'm so careless... Still remember few weeks ago I got out of Xiao Ti's car after supper and I lost my balance and fell right on the road... So embarrassing... Tim was there too...

Arghhh... My butt hurts...

I don't know how to reply
I don't know how to answer
I don't know how to accept
I don't know how to reject
I don't know how to sleep
I don't know how to wake up
I don't know how to see
I don't know how to feel

I don't know

I feel drained...

Virgin Prawning Session

A string of events in a day... Project Meetings, Schooling, Prawning with my clique, Dinner and Supper... I got my first prawn in 2 minutes... *Beginner's luck* The most disturbing part was watching how Hannah put the catfish bait into the hook... *it's ALIVE!* And the second part I hate most was watching how the prawnies got hooked up... The prawnies will use their (Hands/Claws/Legs *whatever you call them*) to get the hook off their mouth... And you know what Hannah and Timo did? They simply pulled their hands off and throw it off the ground heartlessly... And they seemed to be enjoying it... UTTER DI-GUST!


The clique (Missing Fiona & TT)


Hannah was good! She caught the most...


DIE prawnies! Wahahaha!


This prawn is huge!


Timo with the prawn...


The flower Hannah drew earlier in the morning smudged...


Timo's new car is SHO nice! I can just lie down and look at the stars...

P.S. I know it's over but sorry for making your day even worse! SORRY

What did it meant?

This happened few days ago... Class was so draining and it didn't help that we had the most boring module + tutor who utilizes a full 2-hour lesson just for 7 idiotic questions... And so, I started wandering off chatting with Hannah... Felt random and asked her what did the sentence "heart you deep deep" meant... She was in awe that I didn't knew what it meant... Okay... Sorry for being retarded yet again... At least I got the answer... Haha...

After that, Hannah started drawing this... So random of her... The whale looks cute though... Haha...



And this is Hannah!

Phew

Just got back from the awards ceremony... Tiring... I seriously don't know how I got through the past 2 semesters with band, 2 part time jobs PLUS school... I guess hard work really does pay off... But then, I seriously wish I could kneel down at one corner and beg people to throw me their wasted hours... I seriously need more time to do something I enjoy... Wasting my precious time of resting JUST to get PAPERS! (NOT)


Hannah took this for me during classes... Hehe...


Love the hourglass cufflinks!


$$$ (quite little though, but better than nothing... hehe)


Got this earlier on this year...


Today

And conclusion? BIN has a really tired soul...

Really True

Credits from Miao... She never fails to express her inner thoughts in such great details...

The thing about having something hidden in your past is that you spend every minute of the future building a wall that makes the monster harder to see. you convince yourself that the wall is sturdy and thick, and one day, when you wake up and that horrible thing does not immediately jump into your mind, you give yourself the freedom to pretend that it is well and truly gone. which only makes it that much more painful when something like this happens, and you learn that the concrete wall is really as transparent as glass, and twice as fragile.

This is so true...

Skipped

Skipped band to watch Westwind Concert coz Xiao Ti wanted to listen to Jurassic Park... The concert didn't turn out as good as it was supposed to... I had too much expectation of that band... Disappointing... They slaugtered tunes from Final Fantasy not once, but TWICE... It's one of my favourite soundtracks of all times... GOD... How can they do that???

Played around with my new camera... Not bad not bad... and Xiao Ti ended up taking most of the photos for the day... haha... Dinner at Causeway Point with Tim... Headed back home... and I'm exhausted... Getting old...


His new HP craze


My Tiramisu + Green Mint Ice Cream


His Durian + Vanilla (something along that line) ice cream


And I look hideous... Argghhh....

Olympus M1040

You guys must be wondering why I put this up... Okay... I went bonkers and bought this camera... Haha... Was searching for a Sony Ericsson camera phone to buy... but it was too pricey... and I didn't want to spend $600++ just to buy a handphone which I only get to use less than a year... and so BJ suggested I should buy a camera... and TATA! *POOF!* It's here in my possesion now...

Bin shall cut down his spendings from now onwards...

My New Love

Bought this yesterday... and the taste is simply FANTASTIC!!! Chilled both the drink and glass... Added ice... Poured in the alcohol... Alone at home... Sat down on the sofa and took the first gulp... REFRESHING... ended up drinking the 2nd glass... Felt calm while drinking this alone... The magic of choya... Combination of the taste of sour and the alcohol... Going to make this a monthly thing... Shall stock my fridge with choya monthly...

That was really...

Happen to chance upon 我是俏宝宝 a.k.a Super Tots on Channel 8. Was actually a show whereby parents showcase their kids whilst getting them to compete with other kids on cute games... Was really amazed at the kid's reactions towards the instructions given to by their parents... SOOOO bright!

And so... I asked my mum, "Ma, did I speak so fluently like them at the age of 2-3+?" And this is what she replied... "You? Oh... You can't even speak right... You didn't really know how to speak at that time... You were slow... and you stutter alot..."

Now I realise why I only had memories at the age of 4... Freaking retarded...

What A Night

"Wasn't easy to be so persistant... and turned down, recieve OKAYs, and phone calls tt were cancelled!"

Number of calls cancelled? Lost count... Opps... But still... Thanks for everything... One of the messages really woke me up... FOR GOOD! You are really special... At least that's what I felt...

Not so well after all...

31st October 2008

And yesterday marked the last day of my 10 week attachment at Prudential... Time seemed to fly really fast... Too fast for me to even comprehend or even catch a breath...

Earlier on, my liaison officer came to the office and dropped 2 exploding news to me, but I'm not even sure to be happy or not... Didn't really had any mood to listen to her anyway... then a minute ago, I was thinking how to say goodbye to Marcus as the conversation didn't seem to come to a nice spot where I could put an end to it... Before I could even remember, I found myself literally "running" towards the mrt station to meet ym before heading for the concert... and God were we squashed like packed sardine sandwiches in the train towards Raffles Place...

Bought a tea/coffee plunger as a farewell gift... Something I knew he will defintely use it for good...


This was taken by Boon Peng... The picture came out pretty good... courtesy from my Panasonic VS6... Till now, I still don't understand why my colleagues say we had the "Father-Son Look", the "Brother Look", able to "Speak Alike"... So on and so forth...


Angeline told me to take a photo with the client's policy that were piling up like mad, it was way too high that I had to transfer half of it into the cabinet... What you've just seen was only 10% of it...


I'm seriously glad that I was able to complete everything that was assigned to me... Really worked my ass off... If its not for the skipped lunches, the OTs... I may not be able to finish it within this 10 weeks...

I felt really sad leaving the place, but what Tim said was right... I should leave the place at my highest point... and I think I did... All the wonderful memories... the neverending teabreaks... All I could say was... I really enjoyed every single moment being there...

This 10 weeks have really changed my mindset in alot of ways... I seriously don't see my old self anymore... For good or for worst, we are constantly changing... I hope others still see me for who I am...

I have a really bad premonition going back to school... I know something is going to happen... Something bad... I know this last semester is not going to be so smooth sailing as it did in the past... Maybe alot of dramas would be unfolded to test the friendship between my polymates... Well... Let's see... I shall await...