不是很喜歡這種感覺。是對的人或錯的人我也不知道。是尋我開心嗎？我也不知道。只知道好像在玩心裡頭的捉迷藏。耍心理戰術，試著去猜測對方的想法。我不喜歡這種感覺，也很儘力的不去想。希望那只是我的幻想。近來都過的很好。我不想再歷史重演。雖然心裡是存有那一丁點的渴望，但還真的不想再一次被誤導，被傷害。我的心其實沒有那麼堅強。錯的人，一個就已經足夠了。
P.S.那你是對的人嗎？
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Monday, July 02, 2012
Student Exchange Programme
I'm targeting to go Japan for my Student Exchange Programme (SEP). From past records, universities in Japan has been the toughest for students like me to get in. I just hope things will go smoothly. I need miracles to happen.
Things that are working against me for this application.
1) My results aren't that fantastic.
2) Totally have no idea how mapping of modules work.
3) Money is still an issue but I'm working towards the "ideal" amount.
4) My parents aren't kept in the loop, shall tell them when everything is done.
It's quite an irritating thing that I've always envied kids who are raised in an environment way better than me. In conversations, my mind automatically does this "mental comparison" upon hearing living conditions of others. I can't help but turn a "green-eyed monster" knowing their lives are so well taken care of. Guess that's just me. Perhaps comparison makes the better out of me.
I work for my own money. I dislike the fact that kids nowadays just ask for money without knowing the true value of it. It's rather distasteful. Perhaps I'm just a sour grape. Knowing other kids get the privilege of "free" money and I'm just not entitled to any of them.
Jealousy kills but I think comparison kills the most. I'm crapping too much. Now the title doesn't even match the contents of this blog post. whatever.
Things that are working against me for this application.
1) My results aren't that fantastic.
2) Totally have no idea how mapping of modules work.
3) Money is still an issue but I'm working towards the "ideal" amount.
4) My parents aren't kept in the loop, shall tell them when everything is done.
It's quite an irritating thing that I've always envied kids who are raised in an environment way better than me. In conversations, my mind automatically does this "mental comparison" upon hearing living conditions of others. I can't help but turn a "green-eyed monster" knowing their lives are so well taken care of. Guess that's just me. Perhaps comparison makes the better out of me.
I work for my own money. I dislike the fact that kids nowadays just ask for money without knowing the true value of it. It's rather distasteful. Perhaps I'm just a sour grape. Knowing other kids get the privilege of "free" money and I'm just not entitled to any of them.
Jealousy kills but I think comparison kills the most. I'm crapping too much. Now the title doesn't even match the contents of this blog post. whatever.
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