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I know Hari Raya's coming soon...
Guys! Was this 3 years or 2 years ago? OMG! Haha!
Good memories eh?

Friday

I didn't like that feeling...
It wasn't a very good day...
I was on a frenzy shunning away from people I knew on the streets...
It was literally CRAZY...
Acquaintances after acquaintances... Friends after friends...

It was nice meeting khaki again... We had a wonderful conversation...
Everybody changes from time to time... And yes they do...
We laughed and talked about the times spent during work in TCC...
I was only 17 back then...
Whatever that was said in Trattoria stays in Trattoria... ;)

I was on the way home and the meeting 'frenzy' didn't stop...
I met Sophia next...
We used to work together in TCC too...
We talked and updated each others' lives...
Sophia told me I've changed...
She told me I spoke differently...
She said "the Guobin in the past never use words like 'kan'..."
I left and she dropped me a message which shocked me...

"Guobin, I may not know what's going on in your life. You seem bothered or upset by some things. However, you must stay positive and jiayou! Take care and rest well!"

There's always highs and lows in people's lives and I guess now's not a very good period for me... It's like a grey area for me... It's neither here nor there... Everything seems so ambigious... I kinda hate that feeling...

I sometimes wished I didn't have to think so much but then again, I guess I can't seem to stop myself from doing so...

How can one be so heartless at avoiding situations he/she doesn't want to face?
Self-denial? Lack of courage? Or just simply uninterested?
I wish to understand...

P.S. To You, To Me... 干嘛老是用脸往冷屁股里帖。

the pain of losing someone
the pain of ending a relationship which one had invested so much in

as opposed to

the pain of ending what might have been one's desired future/career
the pain of suffering from defeat

which hurts more?
can pain be quantified?

君が想い出になる前に

我以为我成熟 以为从此就自由
我尝试着快乐 快乐却不陪着我

Your words irk me...
I would've easily ignored the comments made by you...
But then, I can't bring myself to do so...
Perhaps because it's you...

My tolerance level seems to be depleting with every incident accounted for...
When will I reach my boiling point?

Weird

Tsunami
To see a tsunami in your dream, means that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feeling or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in a waking situation.

Lock
To see a lock in your dream, signifies your inability to get what you want. You are being kept out of some activity or situation. Perhaps an aspect of yourself is locked up inside and it needs to be expressed.

Elevator
To dream that the elevator is out of order or that it is not letting you off, symbolizes that your emotions have gotten out of control. It may be a reflection of your life or your career. You are feeling stuck in some aspect of your life, whether it is your career, relationship, etc.

Staircase
To see a staircase in your dream, symbolizes change and transformation.

Chase
To dream that you are chasing someone, signifies that you are attempting to overcome a difficult goal or task. You may also be expressing some aggressive feelings toward others.

Ten
Ten corresponds to closure, great strength, and gains.

And that's the sequence of my dream...
Tsunami heading towards my way
Unable to take the lift as it was chained by locks
Ran up the stairs
Saw a girl running up the stairs and gave chase
Reached tenth floor
And the rest were a blur

Linking all the key words... It does surprisingly form a string of attached meanings... Interesting... Everything little detail I remember in the dream seems to be so well coordinated... It's like there's a problem and a resolution at the 'end'... So weird...

3 Months Later

The card is finally in my hands after 3 months... Haha!
One of the pictures came off... >_<
But anyway, thanks so much PK! I like the card alot... :)

Late

My Ipod hit a certain song on my playlist...
I was thinking... "Oh! It's that song."
I sat alone and really listened to the lyrics...
My mind was in a state of shock when the song ended...
It felt as if the lyrics were punching my face with each word sang...
So that was what you were trying to convey to me back then?
It's already been more than a year...
Guess it doesn't matter to either of us anymore eh...

Thinking back, how could I've been so unobservant to not notice such details?
Stupid me... Guess it's better late than never...