Friends

Shaun mentioned something interesting yesterday...
He made me see light in different perspectives...
I was quite touched by a comment made by him...
Guess that's what friends are for...

I'm so looking forward to the Kuala Lumpur trip, hope it will be a blast!
Seriously sick and tired of unit life...
Being a man really isn't easy, there's a lot of nonsense one has to put up with...
If there's one thing I've learnt in NS, it's definitely knowing how to build a high threshold of tolerance...
Shan't dwell too much in it, just makes me fume...

-Side Note-
I realise I have very poor general knowledge... I feel so stupid in front of my peers... To speak the fact, I've never bothered to understand the mechanics of how things function... Really took them for granted... I should really work on those areas, what an asinine am I...

P.S. Happy Birthday Mr. Teo!

Got stung by some unknown hideous insect in camp...
My hand is so swollen now...
Seriously, it looks like a pork knuckle...

I don't think I need to elaborate how awkward it was...
Nevertheless, I need to put on a false front if this is how it's going to be...
Will I get my resolution? Will the pain stop?
If yes, how long will it take?

Cooked

Tried something new today... I cooked!
Was too bored with my mum's cooking, not that it's not nice...
It's always the same old dishes!
I decided to cook indian curry chicken...
It was a random pick... I got the ingredients from youtube...
Bought lots of spices which I've never tried before...
Things like green cardamoms and garam masala, have never heard of them in my life...





Full protection gear to prevent oil from splattering onto my arms!







Outcome was a success!
The curry chicken tasted delicious! The spiciness was just right!
Dad and Mum liked it... For someone like my Dad to have 2 servings is just rare...
Conclusion: I can cook! + I keep the kitchen clean and tidy at all times!

Kyle's Mum

Haven't seen this for a long time... Watching it again makes me laugh...
Cartman did the "big band" style at the end, that's just classic! Haha!

Weird

The other day when I met up with Miao & Bren, I chanced upon this online friend of mine... I was pretty sure it was him... Got to know him since my Poly days... It's kinda weird to see someone whom you've never met before in person...

I thought he didn't see me because I was in the 2nd floor (he's in the ground floor)... I checked with him yesterday and realized he did noticed me too... But just wasn't sure if I was the correct person... Just weird... Haha...

As ambiguous and dangerous the virtual world may seem, I believe we can place our trust on others to a certain extent... You just have to go along with your heart... See if it feels "right"... Let your senses do the thinking and everything should be fine...

Pasta

This has to be one of the nicest korean dramas I've ever watched! Snuck up late to finish it... The ending was really well executed... Tastefully done! The loose ends were nicely fixed... Nowadays, I rarely find shows with great endings... This is one that entices me to demand more of the show... Truthfully, I didn't want the show to end... It ended too quick for me... Or perhaps I've watched it too fast... Haha!



The drama ended with the illustration of the favourite scenes from the show... My favourite scenes are all in there too...

Touching Up A Little

A fruitful day...
Got a new shelf to set things straight...
Took me 4.5 hours to rearrange all my stuff...
That included cleaning my room...

This was already 50% done... The mess was indescribable... I didn't know where to begin when I threw all the things on the ground... Quite a bad move...



Lots of segmentation, categorization and compartmentalization done...
Felt great sense of achievement at the end!
Was digging out items and found some which brought back fond memories... :)

Don't be shock... That's me when I was in primary school... A fat bozo...



Band days...



This was taken in Johor! Bren will kill me if she sees this leaked! Haha!



I knew I had a decent amount of letters & cards collected since primary school... But I didn't know I had THAT much!





Finally, everything is in order now!



The next thing I need to do is to get my room painted again... I need a brighter blue... A pity my ceiling's cloud design was painted over with boring white... Or I'll literally be living in my own little nirvana...



Guess it's not so bad afterall, I still get to look at my glow-in-the-dark moon before I fall asleep...

Just when I thought I was okay and ready to move on...
I saw something I didn't want to see...
And everything seems crumbling down on me again...
The foundation I have built... Destroyed...
What a kill joy!!! Why am I so affected? WHY?
Guess I'm just lying to myself all this while...
Yeah... FUCK MY LIFE!

Break

FINALLY! The long awaited break has come...
Having a backlog of 3 months for my TIMES magazines...
A chance to finish reading all of them...
There's just so much to read... And I'm lazy at times... It feels like it's becoming an obligation... :S

My uncle is about to move into another new unit so he gave away SOME of his books...
I have to say I GLADLY accept them... Those are what I call treasures... My mum told me the books were bought 30 years ago at the price of few thousand dollars! I was shocked when I heard it... I don't think I need to further explain the value of money 30 years ago... It's insane! They're just books or perhaps a nicer description would be... Encyclopedias







Tasty cup noodle for size reference!


Cool eh?!

rejection is defeat
ambivalence is but a cruelty
jaded with life
violence; a mitigating factor
everyone has a second sorrow
and i see it at its wit's end

Same As It Never Was

Finally got a chance to meet up with Brenda and Miao Ling... Last gathering was approximately 2.5 years ago? It was definitely a great catch up... I missed the times working together with them... I still remembered teaching Miao Ling on product knowledge when she first joined the team...

I believe all of us missed working as a barista...
The feeling of being dominant and powerful when you stood in the bar counter...
The countless order chits enticing the rush of adrenaline to complete each drinks perfectly in the fastest manner...
The sense of satisfaction and triumph one gets after tackling a crazy lunch crowd...
It was something special... A one-of-a-kind experience which I don't think I'll ever get again...

Talking to Miao Ling made me once again realise how similar we were... The habits and weird antics we shared... How synchronise our behaviours were...

This was a 2007 post...

1) No egg yolks
2) Hate seafood except fish (no salmon please)
3) No internal organs of animals
4) Chicken is the best, beef is alright
5) Towel we use must not be too rough or smooth and it must be able to absorb a significant amount of water.
6) Only Sunkist orange
7) Only green grapes
8) Eating sweet stuff after a meal
9) 3 different types of cleansing product. Hair, Face and Body
10) Cleaning toilet bowl seats before use even though it's clean

This was a post by Miao Ling yesterday...

#1. At Xin Wang, he ordered fried noodle with luncheon meat & egg whereas i ordered mee sua with luncheon meat & egg. it was unplanned and the difference was only the noodles used.
#2. We don't eat fried egg yolks.
#3. We didn't eat our xiao bai cai in the noodles.
#4. We eat tomatoes but not cucumbers.
#5. I don't eat prawns, and he doesn't fancy them much either.
#6. We don't give tuition 'cos we feel that we can't teach.
#7. Sweet tooth (he likes to eat sweet things after meals! i knew this from long ago haha.)
#8. We both don't wanna learn driving simply because we've no interest in it, despite people around us telling us we should learn.

I have to say not much difference after 3 years... Haha! She was my delinquent duo and she still is... I don't think I can find another one to replace her...



Every now and then, people enter into your life...
Walked the road you've traveled...
As time goes by, they become relatively distant away from you...
Not that the relationship has taken a toll, but the fact that they've just simply moved on with their lives...

I sometimes stopped and reminisce about the past...
Laughed at the fond memories I had...
I'm grateful for the past...
If you asked me who do I missed the most...
I think the person would have to be Damien...
He was my caretaker, my elder brother, my happy medicine...

I was suppose to meet him next week but a twist of fate made the meet up realised a tad earlier... We used to walk the streets from Raffles Place to Little India every time after work... We would stop by for our favourite Yuan Xiang fried rice in Bugis midway...

This routine was reenacted yesterday... The scenery changed so much in Singapore... Despite that fact, Damien was still the old him I knew 5 years back... I was happy to be able to do that routine again... It was literally "a jot down back to memory lane"... How cheesy... Haha!

2006




2007


2010



Looking at the past photos, we did mature after all these years... A tinge of melancholy toppled with an abundance of nostalgia... That's how it felt...

Perhaps you didn't show...
But I was darn worried just now...
Worried anything might happen...

Hate this kind of residual feeling
It's impeding my thoughts
I'm lost, I need to escape from reality
What else can I do?

人

We are the unfortunate
Led by the unworthy
To do the unnecessary
For the ungratefuls

If only the concealment was better...
Once you lie down... Alone...
You let the demon run in you...
It feels like it's eating you from inside...

I Am

Very true findings....

DOMINANCE

People who score in the low range:
~ tend to want peace and harmony.
~ prefer to let others initiate action and resolve problems.
~ are quiet and indirect in their approach to most situations.
~ are usually cautious and calculate risks carefully before acting.

They are generally well liked because of their mild and gentle nature. Other people will tend to see them as being patient, calm, thoughtful and a good listener.

INFLUENCE

People who score in the average range are likely to possess and display a mixture of the traits and behaviours associated with both high range and low range scores. A well balanced mix of the best of both ranges.

STEADINESS

People who score in the low range:
~ tend to enjoy change and variety in their work and non-work life.
~ are expansive by nature and tend not to like routine and repetitive work/activities.

They enjoy stretching themselves intellectually and physically.

People who score in this range are unlikely to be 'extreme' types.

COMPLIANCE

People who score in the low range:
~ are independent and uninhibited.
~ resent rules and restrictions.
~ prefer to be measured by results and are always willing to try the untried.

Free in thought, word and deed, they long for freedom and go to great lengths to achieve it.
They feel that repetitive detail and routine work is best 'delegated'.

Random Photo

I know Hari Raya's coming soon...
Guys! Was this 3 years or 2 years ago? OMG! Haha!
Good memories eh?

Friday

I didn't like that feeling...
It wasn't a very good day...
I was on a frenzy shunning away from people I knew on the streets...
It was literally CRAZY...
Acquaintances after acquaintances... Friends after friends...

It was nice meeting khaki again... We had a wonderful conversation...
Everybody changes from time to time... And yes they do...
We laughed and talked about the times spent during work in TCC...
I was only 17 back then...
Whatever that was said in Trattoria stays in Trattoria... ;)

I was on the way home and the meeting 'frenzy' didn't stop...
I met Sophia next...
We used to work together in TCC too...
We talked and updated each others' lives...
Sophia told me I've changed...
She told me I spoke differently...
She said "the Guobin in the past never use words like 'kan'..."
I left and she dropped me a message which shocked me...

"Guobin, I may not know what's going on in your life. You seem bothered or upset by some things. However, you must stay positive and jiayou! Take care and rest well!"

There's always highs and lows in people's lives and I guess now's not a very good period for me... It's like a grey area for me... It's neither here nor there... Everything seems so ambigious... I kinda hate that feeling...

I sometimes wished I didn't have to think so much but then again, I guess I can't seem to stop myself from doing so...

How can one be so heartless at avoiding situations he/she doesn't want to face?
Self-denial? Lack of courage? Or just simply uninterested?
I wish to understand...

P.S. To You, To Me... 干嘛老是用脸往冷屁股里帖。

the pain of losing someone
the pain of ending a relationship which one had invested so much in

as opposed to

the pain of ending what might have been one's desired future/career
the pain of suffering from defeat

which hurts more?
can pain be quantified?